|"Behold, I stand at the door, and knock." — Revelation 3:20|
from chapter 9, "The Great Knock," in Surprised by Joy by C. S. Lewis:
We shook hands, and though his grip was like iron pincers it was not lingering. A few minutes later we were walking away from the station.
"You are now," said Kirk, "proceeding along the principal artery between Great and Little Bookham."
I stole a glance at him. Was this geographical exordium a heavy joke? Or was he trying to conceal his emotions? His face, however, showed only an inflexible gravity. I began to "make conversation" in the deplorable manner which I had acquired at those evening parties and indeed found increasingly necessary to use with my father. I said I was surprised at the "scenery" of Surrey; it was much "wilder" that I had expected.
"Stop!" shouted Kirk with a suddenness that made me jump. "What do you mean by wildness and what grounds had you for not expecting it?"
I replied I don't know what, still "making conversation." As answer after answer was torn to shreds it at last dawned on me that he really wanted to know. He was not making conversation, nor joking, nor snubbing me; he wanted to know. I was stung into attempting a real answer. A few passes sufficed to show that I had no clear and distinct idea corresponding to the word "wildness," and that, in so far as I had any idea at all, "wildness" was a singularly inept word. "Do you not see, then," concluded the Great Knock, "that your remark was meaningless?" I prepared to sulk a little, assuming that the subject would now be dropped. Never was I more mistaken in my life. Having analyzed my terms, Kirk was proceeding to deal with my proposition as a whole. On what had I based (but he pronounced it baized) my expectations about the Flora and Geology of Surrey? Was it maps, or photographs, or books? I could produce none. It had, heaven help me, never occurred to me that what I called my thoughts needed to be "baized" on anything. Kirk once more drew a conclusion — without the slightest sign of emotion, but equally without the slightest concession to what I thought good manners: "Do you now see, then, that you had no right to have any opinion whatever on the subject?"
By this time our acquaintance had lasted about three and a half minutes; but the tone set by this first conversation was preserved without a single break during all the years I spent at Bookham.
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